So, Iam not much of a writer but recently have made a very drastic decision in my life, and figured this may help me get my thoughts together. So in this time of recession, I decide to quit my job. I know, I know, how could I, am I a fool, what is wrong with me...are just a few of the questions people ask. I know it was probably not the brightest move I have made in my life, but I feel like it is what I had to do. Times are tough and I have had hope that it would not be that hard to find a job. Well this is my first week without a pay check, and I think reality is setting in.
What am i going to do? I am searching for a job that I would love and would make me happy, but no one is hiring out there. Do I take a shit job, that doesn't even cover my rent just to have something? I have abot two weeks of funds, before I really freak out, but it is the holiday season, and no one really is going to hire until after christmas. Now I am thinking- Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life? I still want to stand firm beside my decision and think I did do this at the right time, and I will get what I want, but it seems to be fading in the distance, along with the one I want!
Am I having a midlife crisis before I am even 30? Or is it the fear of turning 30 that has turned me into a raging, hormonal, party machine? It seems like what makes me happy, but where should happiness really come from?
Like I stated, I am not a writer, this probably looks like a big mess to most who read, but then again, maybe I am just a big mess right now, maybe this is why I write the way I do. I just have to keep my head up, and go for what I want. I've always done so in the past and whether I got it or not, I was always happy that I tried.
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