You are given a chance at something, you take it, it is perfect, then fails. Now you are given a second chance at the same thing, do you take it???? Can things be different at a different time, or will they always be there same? If you fail once, can you really suceed the second time. Now there was no practicing going on in the past months, but I am still taking a stab at the same thing that came crashing down on me, why????
Guess this goes with my timing post. Does time change people? Is change good? Things must change with time, or second chances would not be given. But, I can't think of a time when a second chance came along and turned out to work better then the first time around. So why do we take them? The idea of hope really pushing one to try.
I can to write how I was feeling, but suddenly very distracted and can't focus, maybe that explains a lot of my life and how things revolve. Break for now, will come back when more focused.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Love and Timing
How is it that people who once thought they were in love fall out of love and blame it on timing? Everyone has had that one perosn that they thought, this is it. He/she is the one for me. Of course i had my one....we broke up and blamed it on bad timing. Yet we tried again later down the road and again it was blamed on bad timing. But wasn't it great timing that we met eachother in the first place? Or that we tried again later? Would it REALLY have worked out if it were at another time? See I have no regrets here, i feel we gave it our all and timing or not, it wasn't meant to be.
Recently I meet a new one, not as specail as the perviously mentioned person and thought, hey this might be it. Let me give it a try. Things were great, time was moving along and we were moving apart. I got worried, person A had stuff going on, and out time together was pushed back because of other things. it continued to go like that and things ended. A said that it was just bad timing. So does that mean I should try it again? I have done that before and it never really seems to be timing. If the right person is in front of you, it shouldn't matter what else is going on. You would make it work right???? So why do we blame timing?
What about when you meet the perfect one, but they live on another continent? Is that timing also? Maybe one of you were meant to move, or will move, do you presue that? This seems to be the problem I face. The one/s I want live about 6000 miles away. What if we have met, the timing was perfect, there is just this huge thing will call the ocean seperating us? What then? Who moves? Do you move? Do you try this so called long distance relationship? Or what if you are not even dating this person, but KNOW they are the perfect one for you, what now? The one you think about last when you fall asleep. The one who you dream about. The one who you are smiling and willing to get out of bed for just to daydream about them? Who cares if they are thinking about you the same way, if they knew your feelings it would be enough for the two of you.
So if timing really is what can make or break love, my question is how long do you wait for the one you want? Others come by, do you try, and see if it is perfect timing they came by, or do you wait for that one you truely, madly want?
Recently I meet a new one, not as specail as the perviously mentioned person and thought, hey this might be it. Let me give it a try. Things were great, time was moving along and we were moving apart. I got worried, person A had stuff going on, and out time together was pushed back because of other things. it continued to go like that and things ended. A said that it was just bad timing. So does that mean I should try it again? I have done that before and it never really seems to be timing. If the right person is in front of you, it shouldn't matter what else is going on. You would make it work right???? So why do we blame timing?
What about when you meet the perfect one, but they live on another continent? Is that timing also? Maybe one of you were meant to move, or will move, do you presue that? This seems to be the problem I face. The one/s I want live about 6000 miles away. What if we have met, the timing was perfect, there is just this huge thing will call the ocean seperating us? What then? Who moves? Do you move? Do you try this so called long distance relationship? Or what if you are not even dating this person, but KNOW they are the perfect one for you, what now? The one you think about last when you fall asleep. The one who you dream about. The one who you are smiling and willing to get out of bed for just to daydream about them? Who cares if they are thinking about you the same way, if they knew your feelings it would be enough for the two of you.
So if timing really is what can make or break love, my question is how long do you wait for the one you want? Others come by, do you try, and see if it is perfect timing they came by, or do you wait for that one you truely, madly want?
Monday, December 15, 2008
Confused
So, Iam not much of a writer but recently have made a very drastic decision in my life, and figured this may help me get my thoughts together. So in this time of recession, I decide to quit my job. I know, I know, how could I, am I a fool, what is wrong with me...are just a few of the questions people ask. I know it was probably not the brightest move I have made in my life, but I feel like it is what I had to do. Times are tough and I have had hope that it would not be that hard to find a job. Well this is my first week without a pay check, and I think reality is setting in.
What am i going to do? I am searching for a job that I would love and would make me happy, but no one is hiring out there. Do I take a shit job, that doesn't even cover my rent just to have something? I have abot two weeks of funds, before I really freak out, but it is the holiday season, and no one really is going to hire until after christmas. Now I am thinking- Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life? I still want to stand firm beside my decision and think I did do this at the right time, and I will get what I want, but it seems to be fading in the distance, along with the one I want!
Am I having a midlife crisis before I am even 30? Or is it the fear of turning 30 that has turned me into a raging, hormonal, party machine? It seems like what makes me happy, but where should happiness really come from?
Like I stated, I am not a writer, this probably looks like a big mess to most who read, but then again, maybe I am just a big mess right now, maybe this is why I write the way I do. I just have to keep my head up, and go for what I want. I've always done so in the past and whether I got it or not, I was always happy that I tried.
What am i going to do? I am searching for a job that I would love and would make me happy, but no one is hiring out there. Do I take a shit job, that doesn't even cover my rent just to have something? I have abot two weeks of funds, before I really freak out, but it is the holiday season, and no one really is going to hire until after christmas. Now I am thinking- Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life? I still want to stand firm beside my decision and think I did do this at the right time, and I will get what I want, but it seems to be fading in the distance, along with the one I want!
Am I having a midlife crisis before I am even 30? Or is it the fear of turning 30 that has turned me into a raging, hormonal, party machine? It seems like what makes me happy, but where should happiness really come from?
Like I stated, I am not a writer, this probably looks like a big mess to most who read, but then again, maybe I am just a big mess right now, maybe this is why I write the way I do. I just have to keep my head up, and go for what I want. I've always done so in the past and whether I got it or not, I was always happy that I tried.
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